Sunday, December 13, 2009

@ 8:27 PM

i have been through alot today...
hahax
been through alot of things to do in my free time!

FIRST TIME THAT I FELT SO FREE BECAUSE I FELT THAT I HAVE ALR GRADUATED ALR!
since the fyp presentation bomb had exploded
my feelings are so rejoiced.
to speak of the truth
even till the presentation day i was NOT NERVOUS AT ALL
not a hint of it.
no preparations
no nervousness
i dun even feel it
HA!

i duno is it my father looking after me or wad. x)
and another truth to speak
the days when i need to submit report, i have this thought that flash thru my head.
can i dun do report
dun submit?
budden i cannot graduate!
andwei.
that thought make me continue with the last bit of what is left for my poly life.

next comes the presentation day
i was still onlining till 2am
not feeling a bit of fyp presentation 'later on'
when i woke up,
i have this thought again
can i dun go for presentation??
then deja vu,
the only thing that separates me from me getting my diploma cert was this freaking presentation.
so i went.

stupid right?
ya stupid.

after presentation u know what?
i came home
i slept at 9pm plus
never eat dinner
and woke up the next day at 9am.
i totally slept 12 hours! WHEE

so the day went by smoothly
the next day... which is today
first thing i online to search for neon balloons for youja chingu
my mum see i was so engrossed that she put cereal on the table beside me...

and TOTALLY ENGROSS till she pour out the cereal and milk in the bowl for me.
hahahx
cus i was typing and searching non stop and an hour pass alr till she cannot take it.
HA.

then found a few places... but not certain at all.
hais
anyway.
NTUC have a few options of balloons.
popular has the paper.
so that might settle it.
the budget also so little.

if there is time,
i can customise masks for each of the members at AH right now
white, black, blue, yellow, green and pink right? just nice for the 6 of u

but i need time
so tell me before hand OH.

hmmmms.
then after that i read my book,
first time in a while i have done reading on books from library.
then after that i open my fan fic and work and edit a portion of it.
big portion anyway.
it influences how my ending will turn out x)
i need to make it was interesting as i can

i was thinking if i was in the good moods,
i will publish the first chapter VERY SOON.
kildaryo jusaeyo~

then now when i visit dbsk fan club i realize why i set the date 26 of dec to be our anniversary alr.
26 of december is the date i set from last year, to commemorate the day i should keep my hair long till.
which is the 6th year of anniversary of DBSK!

but now,
after all the events.
1 year its all it takes for all joy and sorrows to come.

this christmas,
i wish for 2pm to have Jay back into the team
i wish for DBSK to be as 5 again
i wish for both 2pm and DBSK to hold concerts in SINGAPORE in 2010!
May Jesus bless my wish come true!

I was so devastated ytd
12.12.2009
SEOUL'd OUT CONCERT.
HAIS!
I WAS SUPPOSE TO GO ONE CAN!
65 dollas!
then no one go with me! early bird special gone.
then 85 dollars
also no one wanna go with me....
till the day comes
105 dollars
also no one to go with me.


hais
if i go
i feel wasted
i had this in mind alr
i wanna make a placecard that says,
JO KWON, GA-IN YONGWONUN SARANG!
and many many hearts around.
kekekes

if 2pm comes
or JYP family comes
I WILL PAY ALL COSTS TO GET FRONT ROW SEATS!
RAWRS!
hais
love
please come!
i have been waiting for u all
waiting for jay to come too.
kildaryo~ <33


now my syndrome of not eating is back again
i dunno why leh
otokae
my body is old alr.
need to eat!!
*poke tummy*
deflates....

Friday, December 11, 2009

@ 9:23 PM

Saturday, December 5, 2009

@ 10:28 PM

i need your warm embrace to lay into every night
i need your big warm hands to defrost mine
i need your big shoulders to lie when i cry
i need your hug when I'm insecure
i need your care when I'm in pain
i need you to go through all my sorrows with me
i need you to make me happy
i need you to make my day
i need you to shelter me from the rain
i need you to carry things when i can't
i need you to put me as your priority
i need you to be here when i am sick




will you give up your life to save mine?
will you swear to go through thick and thin with me?
will you be able to live and grow old with me?
will you be a good husband to me?
only he can fulfill my list of needs.

Monday, November 30, 2009

@ 8:05 PM

i felt that pairing me up with the wrong person sort of ruin everything?

hais
sick ppl with sick talk.

i duno what i can say
i was stressed out perhaps

situation starts like this,
last week during miscellaneous week, we were at TPN lab.
when looking at our workbook questions, we approach the person giving us the tour there.
she told us to arrange time and come back next mon 3-6
because half a day for us is seriously too little to learn from her anything and for her to teach us our workbook qns.

but then i told rachel on sat, as ismail is not working on that day.
ismail is the only one to approve of this. but i can only find him on mon.
then mon comes,
i need to have mc.
then i duno how the arrangements were made also.
MY never sms me or tell me anything...

hais
plus suddenly mass msg was sent.
about allowance sheet.
gosh.
u know what?
in the whole group that is in IP right now,
i seriously duno who to approach...

bao bei and weisi is like so far from us,
shawn and my about the same.
the only person that i can trust will be sue yee le.

till she replied my msg then my sick body can rest.
then even dream also dream about the allowance sheet of how to settle it,
scared i left anything out,
wake in cold sweat.
hais.

today,
called the company that does KOSS repairs,
damn can,
what life time warranty.
cheat my feelings one.
]:
the warranty works like how u repair ur laptop
sent in, they check for faulty parts, wait for 1 week and etc.
hey,
im working,
i was thinking since i got mc, i better settle it fast.
now? FORGET IT
i should perhaps buy a new one for myself then.

i feel so lost,
esp without aminah.
seems like i need a supporting pillar,
but i have to be independent now.
i'll learn to be,
and i will try.

haish.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

@ 4:03 PM

i feel that it is good to be rekindled with my dong saengs once again...
:D

esp with youja chingu
the spazziness that i am missing for 2 whole weeks....

WHEEEE
chiong my workbook and completed 13 pages of it alr
WAKAKAKA
plugging 2pm into my ear drums and waking to their voice to keep me gg till 3am.
[:

and one more sad thing to add
my eye sight is deteriorating
i feel like either my degree has increased or my astigmatism has increase
words that i see seems to be blurry and not focused....
otokae.
T_T
haishhhh
IM OLD ALR
wakakaka


ytd was having fun at work
eating duck rice again
damn nice but have to save up to eat it once a while
and i miss the cheap cheap 1.20 fruit stall at houseman canteen.
why isnt there a franchise in sgh itself?
so that when now the monsoon season where it starts to rain DURING MY LUNCH TIME
i can get cheap cheap fibre boost within my reach ma. x)


ytd sharin, ismail and lisa is not there ]:
all on leave?
hope lisa gets well soon [:
i miss u! x)
but lucky that i dun have ward rounds but the ending time after packing is the same in fact xD


hope monday when we return, i dun have to do STATS with blue blue mr woo alr
xD
if i do stats, i dun wanna do in that corner also
i hate small confine spaces to work in,
cus i will have this nausea feeling if i have to be confined in a space for too long. :S


himnae jobelle!
there is still grace period for FYP report.
have to start tml as today i am planning to rest well...
haven been able to slp well for days alr


there is one particular day,
where i dreamt abt 2pm!!!!
RIGHT AT MY HOUSE!
hahahax
jae bum and junsu is wandering and talking to me and my mum. wakakakaka
when my alarm woke me,
i have this detest feeling that i SO WANTED TO TAKE LEAVE THAT DAY JUST TO CONTINUE MY DREAM!
hahahahx
BLEH
but i still return for work. hahhax
gua gua gua~~~~...

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

@ 10:56 PM

can i say that i am indulged in your greasiness??
hahax that greasiness that washed my worried tears away.

i miss you my baby [;

Sunday, November 8, 2009

@ 5:55 PM

Lee Suk Kyu,
7 year old boy, youngest son of Lee Wang Gi.

Though I don't know the both of them.
but this news is very devastating.

This little boy died of sepsis.
which is blood poisoning that cause his whole inflammatory system to fail

His loving father mourned so much for his loss.

Even when I hear this piece of news,
as a human,
I prayed for him.
Suk Kyu ah,
you don't mean to go,
you don't want to,
but the disease took you away from your loved ones.
Bless them when you are looking after them from above.
oki? Little Suk Kyu angel. You are in 'His' good hands.